WHEN i WAS YOUNG i CUD SEE STRAIGHT THROUGH ALL THE SHIT DEH TELL WE..GOD IN HEAVEN MIH RARSE!!!!
all I saw was flesh and blood..death and dying, horror all around. dem skun an' dem lie. if a man was made by god, and eternal life and all dat why all the suffering I see? it made no sense.
then again if god made me why he make me shit? why when I ate shit I got runnin' belly and shat like a wartuh tap turned on?
and it is not like I did not like to shit..I loved to shit..especially when it slidy, solid and heavy..full up the toilet me one. that used to be great! at least I cud shit if nutten else.
and fart too! fartin' was even bettah that shit. fart was like multi-color..hard soft, silent..among other sounds. I cud fart any which way anyone cud imagine. and loud! those were the best of all farts..huge and fast..cracking and making sure that everybody in the vicinity heard and took notice.
but the power, pleasure and presentation of a fart was in its stench. if a fart was not stink it made no sense. it was pointless. it had to be stink..and in dat I was near the top..or at the top. I was really capable at that.
and women were too..doh let dem foll allyuh with that. I had a sistah who was the best of all with that..the only real, true, honest to goodness silent murderer I ever knew, a real honest to goodness silent assassin. she wud always drop silent killers that no one heard silent ans teh dawn and stink as all hell. and everybody would get blamed except her. no one wud blame a woman for a far..the strangest of all things
but I knew! I cud tell. I used to laff until I started to get blame for her misdeeds. but I never exposed her. and she was the greatest ma. I have never met anyone ever in life who cud fat like her.
she used to ease them out with no physical suggestion at all that is was she. she would be doing whatever naturally and in the flow of that fart and betray no fart-like movement to suggest that she was in any way involved in the aftermath.
and she also had a way of detaching herself from her farts. she would far over here and the stench would come from the other direction. she was alike a fart ventriloquist..who cud throw her fart towards anyone..make it smell like it was coming from anyone nearby except her
allyuh think it was soft. and I had to endure that as a lil bwoy. and I am still standing. oh man. I am tuffer dan I thought
all dem ting so made me see life as it is..flesh and blood and that there is no goddam god. nobody took no kiss mih arse time to make me or any goddam human being. and as I look back now, with what I know about life and all dat went orn all through it ent have nobody better than me that I ever knew or came close to..nobody in fact the life.
it had and have plenty worse..far far far worse than I have ever been.
I pissed off on god and church an' all dat shit early. but early or not deh had sunk hooks into my mental and soul skunt. it came back to cause real emotional turmoil in my soul, mind. it got so bad I went right off the rails, tried to commit suicide..drank a whole bottle of rum to shut myself dong. I was unconscious for a week but I got up not in joy and delight but I got up anyway..and it was not as bad as it was previously.
I wanted to burn every church..not only my own catholic church but all churches and all religions in them. I am not interested in burning them anymore..not necessary. and some are wonderful architecture that may remain as examples of human creativity for all time. and the religions will go..must go..their paradigm too is almost over..to be replaced by a return to the original natural spirituality out of early Arican culture
but in the interim religion as a human tool has allowed humanity to do an incredible amount of evil in the world. but we have done it to ourselves..which I guess is a kind of justification, or expiation..whatever. we were stupid, greedy and socially noxious..not were..are! so we made the religion stupidity and made ourselves pay for it by enslaving and killing ourselves wantonly.... by what we ourselves did. so that there is a kind of justified Nile really..we fucked ourselves and only we involved.
but fuck religion now! still piss on it, get rid of it. there is no man in the goddam sky. there is universal power greater than man..sure! by a long shot. but we shud not even say it dat way. we shud say nature is all..and nature includes us..gave rise to us. nature is not god but a kind of stupid force..which is why we are the way we are, the level we cam out and the stage we have arrived at so far. we are nature growing up.
nature is a goddam force that is immature relevant to what we know we ought to be. in nature. well..that's nature. though us nature can now think with greater facility, touch and feel, see. through us nature is now biology, can fuck and reproduce, explore a massive emotional world it never knew before. nature has expanded into such realms of possibility in its own existence
nature extruded us but did not know! now it does..and will retain and even if we cant make it forever in nature, nature will record and improve..as it did from hominid to homo sapiens sapiens!
nature is spirit, the source. nature is always here, never dies. the world, the universe in material that never dies, energy is always here at some evolutionary point. we do not have to worry about no goddam god. there is none like we have imagined. there is nature which is forever, always here and always will be here, endless, everything and at its own stages of intelligence which we are now extending of it and for it. we keep asking ourselves all the mighty questions of why. why mih rarse.!
there is nutten great about us! run Occams razor over it and see what it is is..the most simple explanatory option is prolly true. there is human purpose everywhere in existence..purpose relative to flesh and blood, to out biology, to our existence and what it is. all that we do have achieved is relevant to human purpose, survival, the scale of that purpose that we have figured out so far. and figure it out we must or we will die as a species. our purpose is to live and to figure out how that can be accomplished indefinitely
anything beyond that is nonsense and drives those so occupied nuts..as it once almost drove men nuts. the religions you see have cause that. once man was occupied by his true state of existence and saw god as nature which kept us all on scale or purpose and existence. then we made these skunt gods and placed them in heaven up in the sky, omnipotent and supreme, who cud make us all with a thought, who gave us his son to mock, to mock and to kill and fuck on a cross..to save us, to give us an opportunity at eternal life if we believe in, and follow a man who is god but allowed us to inflict an ocean of pain pon him..we shit humanity relatively speaking...to save us..for what fucking purpose might I arks?
why wud any goddam supreme god go through all that rigmarole for any reason at all? there is absolutely no logic to that nonsense..none at all. in fact I don't know of any workman or woman who makes any goddam thing inferior to what they knows how to do. such gods as we have made would know any outcome to man. there is absolutely nutten that is possible in human existence, no outcome at all that would be beyond the gods we have made.
so the question begs why the fuck wud any such gods make man?
for what bloody purpose would humanity be made? there is absolutely no reason at all why any god would make humanity. we cant help the gods, no value to them are we. the very gods we have made would not make man. were they real we would not be. they would not waste their time. by nature they would make something beyond them..or relative to them, that they can work with to go on. and by relativity that is who come original mad made 'SPIRITUALITY' not religion for original ma was still in relation to his environment, relative to it, made life in relation to what he saw and understood, developed no fantasies
life is relative..must be, cannot be any other way! all that exists must be relative and have no phantastic relationship to other parts of it. and there is relativity every goddam where we look. if we find something we know that it is relative to other parts of life and we go looking for the relativity and presto we find it. if life was not relative, an integrated whole nothing we see would exist, no life would be possible. that is why we can find things, discover things. we don't discover an dam thing. now that we know what we do we can tell what is there and what is not once we find and understand something
all is explicable..only we do not know all yet,,prolly will never know all given the natural expansion of existential potential we see taking place all the time. we are part of universal movement and therefore face challenges all the time we must overcome in order to survive and go on
there is no gods in the heavens..cannot be any such gods..who if they existed as we have created them would not waste the time to make humanity. we are here and prolly alone so far. we have an opportunity to go on in existence but we have created ourselves the very gravest challenge to that opportunity to go: the economic system we have evolved,along with its cultural tricks to keep it in place. that is capitalism and religion with their gods in the sky
happy sailing humanity, you are going to need all the luck you have..against your very own selves, who are your very greatest enemy; YOU!